this is the worst blog ever. why? because it’s updated every bajillion years. and i’m not unrealistic enough to believe that this blog is read everyday nor do people anticipate an update. so i guess that is the reasoning behind my lack of updating? (i’m horrible, i know)
as you can imagine, there have been some significant progress with wedding planning! a lot of cool things coming up that i will definitely want to update about! up until now, it’s been more of the waiting game since the big things were already done… and it seemed too early to start making things for the wedding… but now that we are 118 days away (EEK!), things are becoming more real! ideas for center pieces and crafts and such are coming together and my wonderful mom is so helpful.
this is how my mama and i do crafts. we don’t like the idea of sitting and painting things and being feminine, apparently…
it’s sunday here and i’m actually visiting the fiance for the first time at his school!
seriously. could i get any worse? i’ve never visited him before because he always wanted to visit san diego… but it’s been nice being around him while he studies. since it’s also finals week for me, i got a lot done and felt obligated to actually update this thing :)
this is a side note, but while we were studying, he was getting sick of it and was saying how he wasn’t motivated and didn’t want to study anymore and such… and he turned the page and…. yea. that’s not very nice, fate! haha
so while i was here, i got to see my good friend form undergrad who is also in medical school where daniel goes. i love love love her (hi debbie!!) and we got to catch up and talk. she got married last august at a beautiful venue over in san juan capistrano. as we were talking about marriage, wedding, and married life, she said something about how happy she is to be married. not in that lovey dovey unrealistic way… but where there is such stability and grounding that feels so secure from knowing that you are married to someone and will come home to them and you will be theirs and they will be yours for forever.
now that might scare some people. but i totally agree with her. as much as i like having my independence and like doing my own thing, i find myself getting more and more excited to be a married person who is with someone not just because they are so adorable and wonderful in all they do… but because being married brings that sense of security that goes beyond even just committing to someone and them committing to you in words or even in action. marriage is not just biblical… but it’s for life. and that doesn’t scare me at all. actually, it really really sounds super exciting!
i could be bias because i love doing things like cooking and sitting at home reading and doing my work and going grocery shopping. i do all these things all the time regardless of bun is there or not. but when i’m married to bun, it’s like i will get to share doing that with him and for him and enjoy it even more than i already do on my own. he doesn’t define me and my happiness, but boy, does he add to it in immeasurable ways. and just by existing!
i’m reading a book called “One Way Love” about how we have a grace that goes beyond our comprehension. even though we believe that we are unconditionally loved in our heads, we still act as though we aren’t. we try so hard to receive grace or create conditions. and as i get closer to getting married to daniel, even though i think i’m too young and immature for such commitment sometimes, this book keeps reminding me that faith is trusting in that type of grace. and i want to be someone like that unconditionally.
so i do have a lot of updates. but they will come slowly and more regularly as spring break approaches :) until next time, happy planning!